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THREAT AND PROMISE
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I was on the phone with my long time friend, Don. |
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Some of our readers know him. Most don’t. He is our “Associated Moment
Minister” in Washington, using us as an umbrella under which to perform
occasional ministries. For instance, he did the first wedding in the new
Mariner’s Safeco Field. |
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He is known in Corvallis as a “Giant Killer,” which is what they called
the football team that beat USC some 30 years ago. OJ was on the USC team
that year. |
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Don and I became acquainted while I was pastor of a University church and
he was doing ecumenical Campus Ministry. He has spent times at our cabin
and we have been at his place when in Seattle. We participated in his wedding
to Beth not very many years ago. |
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Sometime this summer he called me about a biopsy. We had hopes that it
would be OK but wasn’t. His diagnosis is about the same as mine, so we
had much to share. |
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That is the threat. Time for Don to become a giant-killer again. What makes
Don’s situation more difficult is his age, which makes him about 20 years
younger than me. The second thing is that he and Beth had high family hopes.
They were doing watchful waiting, month by month. But not for a bad biopsy,
report. |
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The threat was not only to Don’s life, but to the life they dreamed to
produce. Needless to say, prostate disease can be a major problem for those
hoping for a pregnancy. |
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We’ve shared news of books and papers and other information sources pertaining
to treatment options for several months now. Lots of e-mail messages and
long distance phone calls between us. And lots of mutual caring and support. |
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One night Don called to report something new. The last “new” report he
had was about contact he was making with a Seattle doctor who would be
interested in also seeing me. But this was a different kind of “new.” |
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“We’re pregnant,” said Don. |
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“Wow!” said Art. |
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So it is that last night Don talked about something I had also been thinking.
Don called it the “mysterious juxtapositions in life.” Threat and promise. |
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I thought of the words in “0 Little Town of Bethlehem” that speak of “hopes
and fears.” Also, the words in the nativity story which proclaim that “those
who sit in darkness have seen a great tight.” |
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There’s probably a theological point to be made here, but somehow involving
God in this kind of situation is speculative. Sure, tight against darkness,
promise against threat, are hopeful. On the other hand, who needs darkness
against our light, and threat against our promise? All we can do is notice
what is. And what is, is that when we get what we dream after, it doesn’t
mean that we won’t also get a nightmare we don’t want. |
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The further mystery in all of this is that we can’t know how much promise
is in every threat, and how much threat is in every promise. Our great
hope is that what is within us and between us and around us will uphold
us in both threat and promise.
Art Morgan,
October 2000
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